Hello my dear friends!
How have you all been? I really hope everything is good!
It's been a long time I don't show up, and I really believe you guys have the right, more than anyone, to know what's been happening. I mean, I own you so much. And I know most of you have probably been expecting me to upload more art, and I recognize I'm lacking the feedback you deserve for supporting me so much.
It's been a huge mess for me since the beginning of this year. Bad decisions, bad choices, bad actions. That sums it up pretty well.
As some of you might know, I entered uni this year. I'm actually doing this thing called "Visual Arts".
Well, turns out the course wasn't exactly what I thought it would be, I happened to meet old enemies who went opposite ways years ago, and now are in my
class (why's life so ironic? this will make a great story if I come out of it alive! xD), subjects have nothing to do with art and give PILES of work and random ULTRA HARD tests, teachers tell me I do everything wrong and long story short, it's been
well, a little messy.
Things happened in my personal life too. Do you know that aspect about your life which you can't say you hate, but at the same time, it really, really bothers you? Well, this certain aspect is taking over everything, and I mean everything
that I like. It's external, so I have no control over it. No control over the changes.
I will not bring this up, since I don't want to spoil your day complaining, but this has demotivated me in a certain way which is hard to tell. It shouldn't, but it did. And now I feel angry about myself, because I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I do, and it's so aaarghtetfatfstsfhhh
I really cannot find the right inspiration anymore, because this kinda ruined part of my favorite view of life. And I don't think it will be leaving anytime soon.
But I remain positive, whatever that means. Gosh, I think I've never been so confused in my whole life. About everything! My personal projects, my life, my choices. Specially because I've never been so wrong before. I've been saying what I don't mean, doing things I didn't want to do.
But I really don't want to sound ungrateful, oh no! Besides that, I still have my health kinda well and thank goodness I have a home, and a place like deviantart, where I could meet people like you guys, who, somehow, are simply the best people I have ever, ever met.
I haven't replied your comments lately, and that's because I have a serious time problem. I hardly ever sit down to rest, but even worst, whenever I actually had the time, my self-esteem was so low I didn't have the courage to reply. Wow, that does sound pathetic when I write it!
But let me cut off the drama, enough already. I shouldn't be making excuses, because I intend to get over this phase with all the strength that I have. And I know that better times will come, as they always do, to anyone! As long as we remain true to ourselves, and to our dreams.
Wherever life takes me, I'm prepared and ready to go!
So let me tell you some good news now!
I finally started writing the first U&A's adventure! It should be a short comic, since each story is like a little "episode". Well, at least that's the plan! xD
Time's been short, but I'm really into this, and it brightens my day whenever I see any of you supporting my project. So thank you, my friends, thank you, everyone who ever supported me on this, in any way. Even those who never told me so, thank you! I'm having such a great time, and a great part of that is because of you and your support!
I'm not sure when I'll be able to be back into action here on DA, so I'm sorry to say, but don't expect anything so soon
But do expect me to try!
THANK YOU EVERYONE!
I love you guys
I hope you all have a wonderful rest of weekend!
PS: I'm sorry if you took this journal as some kind of whining or something, that really isn't my intention. My intention here was only to clarify the reason why I have been absent. I can only be grateful to life, and in the end, I have nothing to complain about.